riverdirt.vs.pixiedust: February 2011

It's weird, ya know. You have this idea in your head of what your life is gonna look like when you grow up.... well I never expected all this. All this. This new year, 2011, has brought on a whole new slew of emotions, opportunities, dreams that are reachable and contentness-----is that a word?!?! Ya, I don't think so either but it's a real feeling...to me. to Adam. and to Graham, I'm sure of it.
I keep thinking that if I don't thank the Lord at every chance I get something is going to be taken away from me.

For starters Graham just turned one. Unbelievable. I know, I know. Everyone tells you or us that "they grow up so fast" and your like ya, at the time, when your getting up 3 or 4 times a night you just wanna say.."whatever!" But of course, they're right. Our sweet baby is ONE!!?!?!?! I can NOT even begin to describe what he has brought to me and Adam's life. I mean, yes. It's completely different now. We don't spend near the time together we once did, I was scared.. I remember crying and throwing myself a pitty party a couple days before we were about to go in and have Graham, I made Adam promise me we would always make time for each other and I was terrified that what we had would be interrupted by something I wasn't sure if I was ready for or not. It's all worked out just fine. In fact, more than fine!

We started the morning walking in to his room with the video camera and singing "Happy Birthday to Graham!" He was pumped! Then we made cinimon rolls and sang to him....